My 'sickness' came back recently. I am starting to feel that i am such a ugly girl again :( I seriously look v ugly w/o make up.
I can accept people who is prettier (WITHOUT MAKE UP) saying me ugly or whatever. but what i cant stand most is an average/ugly girl saying people ugly!
Okay thats random. Nobody says that i am ugly but there is someone commenting on my face and hair. I think that i have my father's genes that i have a lot of pimples, so does my bro! I have pimples since sec 1 till now :( I have seen 3 -4 four skin care doc but none of them really helps. I am already 19 and i still have so many pimples! Its so disgusting sometimes. You think i have so many pimples = i want it meh? :(
As for my hair, i am born w nautral curly hair. I hate it when its curly :( Sigh. Why am i not born w flawless skin with natural straight hair. :( I feel so unsatisfied about myself!
I have a fking fat body ( i just coundnt stop eating nowadays :( )
I have a very round and fat face
I have a lot of pimples
I have curly hair ( i know i can go for rebonding but i have VERY VERY little hair + i am facing hair loss problem. Keep on going for rebonding one day i might have nomore hair!
I have very small pupils
YOU SEE. I am a problematic girl. :(
I feel so inferior. One of the reason why i love my bf so much is because i think that only him (&myparents) truly thinks that i am pretty. LOL Maybe because they love me. I know why bf isnt lieing to me about he finds me pretty because he never complain anything about my face before. ( ok maybe he dont dare to) but, he prefers me not to put on make up. He always tell me how much he like my round + fat face and this is also why i feel so comfortable with him. NO STRESS AT ALL. I dont doubt what he says because his action proved it to me.
I finally understand the meaning of 丑人多做怪. I have a friend who is not v good looking, loves to comment on others when she herself have many flaws. I also have a friend who is very pretty but have never hear her saying others before. :)
Bf is currently in china. He will be away for 1 week. miss my handsome mao wang.
I think he look so handsome in this picture below. Except that i have drawn his sideburn too long. HAHA

Will be posting halloween pictures on my next post? byebye. I want my bf now :(